Wednesday, March 8, 2017


Good read below at the link about hair and cancer and how we look to the world when we don't have it, or are growing it back. It also touches on what goes through one's mind when encouraged for surviving. Usually, I just say thanks. I think sometimes "educating" can come off as harsh and unthankful, no matter how nice I try to be. The person encouraging me has good intentions and is being kind, so I try to gauge just how much that person is ready to hear and go from there. I know there are metsters that would think I am wussing out, but tough. I think of other people's feelings. I'm bad that way.

I will have hair again, but I will always be in treatment. It will never be over for those of us with Metastatic Breast Cancer. It may just be a pill, it may be the infused chemical cocktails, it may be a monthly shot. It won't end, though.
For me, hearing the word "survivor" is tough. I'm survivING, but I won't make it out of this alive. Harsh reality, I face it, I'm ok with it (really! we all die! I just know what it will be, more than likely!) The best I hope for is progression free disease and for the most part, I've lived that so far from DX.
I'm not being negative, I am getting the best out of each day, even if I don't make it further than the couch - I've discovered METV and AntennaTV. and shows I remember from growing black and white, sometimes!
Spring is coming, treatment for the ovarian cancer is ending in 4 weeks and then it's back to only a daily pill and monthly shots, no side effects to speak of and did I mention SPRING?!

Friday, February 24, 2017

On the riverbank

I got down to the river this morning. Fog and sunlight, with cloud reflections! The birds were pretty vocal - it sounded like spring out there! 

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

My little peanut

He's getting so big! Four months old now, teething and still such a pleasant little boy. He's getting to be more fun, too, as he becomes more aware of things and people and the pets. 

In the next few months, we will be moving into son's house and will get to see this guy every day! I'm sure there will be days when it's less fun than others, but to see this face everyday will be worth it!

And yes, we found a onesie in Boscov's with my pet name for him on it! It was a must buy!

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Hello sunshine!


I sat outside in the sun yesterday for a bit. It was wonderful! So nice to get some vitamin D that way! Yes, it's unseasonable here this week, but it is much needed for my spirit. I was suffering from cabin fever and the sunshine helps, lots.  Winter hasn't been horrible at all this year, but the gray darkness along with not feeling quite 100% physically wears on me.

Plus, one feels the chill a whole lot more when one's head isn't covered with really thick hair! ;)

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

In your face, cancer!

We are kicking cancer's ass! When I started the new chemo for the ovarian cancer, my tumor markers were 373. After 6 treatments, tumor markers are down to 42! And side effects are minimal!

Take that, cancer!

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

New year!

Nesbitt Park on a sunnier day

Here's to a good new year! I'm starting it fairly healthy. The fluid has been checked by my new chemo and my breathing is back to "normal". I am suffering a side effect this time, though, that I haven't yet through all of the breast cancer treatment. Hair loss.  The good news is, I can rock a short cut! The bad news is, I will be bald for a bit before I get to rock any hair!

I've always liked the thought of hats and this will be my chance to experiment!